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Ten Year Bender

by Stand & Deliver

Released 2015
Stand and Deliver LLC
Released 2015
Stand and Deliver LLC
Literally ten years in the making, an album of uplifting rock, folk and Americana. Chronicling the archetypal American journey from despair to renewed hope and healing.
NOTES
Ten Year Bender is sort of an interesting title in light of this record’s journey. The song of the same name is a meditation on the previous decade of my life, a time in which I was running from my demons and trying to drown them in drink and smoke them out of me with drugs and soothe them away with women and, well, you probably get the picture.

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Stand & Deliver
Brainard, Lupo, Brady, Prosper

Lyrics

I was seeing a nurse she appealed to my libido
You were living with a weatherman from the affiliate in Toledo
He said although it was a small, small station
He got his kicks from meteorological devastation
You said it made you feel almost famous
 
We cut the Midwest for Las Vegas in Elvis’ Cadillac tracks
By the time we hit Pittsburgh
We were too far-gone to even think of turning back
Gasoline, gift shops and cheap sunglasses
You said the highway was the opiate of the masses
I said it made you sound almost famous
Maybe we were drifting maybe we were running away
Maybe we were bebopalula now baby famous for one day
Almost famous
 
We agreed upon a marriage of convenience gamble on domestic bliss
Midnight in the Smokies in a 7-Eleven I got a Slurpee kiss
Cigarettes and french fries and styrofoam cups
You said we’re so far down we must be going up
Yeah, you said we must be almost famous
The campaign broke down near Atlanta
The way these things been known to do
Living large ain’t easy for a smalltime chick
You bought a one-way ticket back to what you’re used to
Sit there in Ohio watch your man on TV
While a lonesome nurse in Detroit change another IV
Me hell I’m almost famous
Maybe we were slipping maybe we just lost our way
Maybe we were cheating time famous for one day
Almost famous

Stand & Deliver
Brainard, Lupo, Brady, Prosper

Lyrics

Waking up out on the road, I’ve been down for too long
Suburbanite El Dorado, you built a heaven but you built it all wrong
You with the suit and the cellular phone, you loot has made you so heavy
Yeah, there’s a wind in your corners
I see the weeds growing in your cracks
 
And you can put me down, today I woke up happy
I’ll burn it all to the ground, today I woke up happy
Wake up!
 
You little girls, your magazine minds
Hey I don’t carry that weight
The day you wake up and the makeup don’t hide your little secret it’s already too late
And all you women, your acquisitive eyes hey I don’t fear your rejection
You built a house on a mountain of lies but it won’t buy you protection!
 
And you can put me down, hey I said I woke up happy
I’ll burn it all to the ground, yeah today I woke up happy
 
Now listen, you with the suit and the cellular phone, your loot has made you so heavy
Yeah there’s a wind in your corners, I see the weeds growing in those cracks
You bought a ticket to ride, you wanna bring it on inside
You bought a ticket to ride, ride, ride, ride, Yeah!
 
It goes on and on yeah.  Today I woke up happy.
It goes on and on and on.  Me I woke up happy.
It goes on and on and on…

No Way

05:17
Stand & Deliver
Brainard, Lupo, Brady, Prosper

Lyrics

Wake up in the morning feeling down
I talk to myself, try to turn the thing around
I count my assets on one finger
Seems like the good times go and all the rest just lingers, lingers on
 
There’s something missing in my mind
There’s something broken, I can’t fix it, I can’t find it
It’s alright, I say
And drag myself across another day
 
But it’s the only way I know
Yeah it’s the only way I know
Hey it’s the only way I know
But it’s no way
 
Last night I dreamed that I was falling,  (On my face again)
And it’s so hard when you’ve hit bottom,  (Yeah, it’s hard to find your way)
I should go get myself a job,  (I look like shit, Oh well, ah)
I’ll have another drink,  (I’ll get around to it tomorrow)
 
And it’s the only way I know
Yeah it’s the only way I know
Hey it’s the only way I know
But it’s no way
And it’s no way, no way, no way at all, no no!
 
So tonight’s another night
I should stay in, but I’ll go out instead
No, I would no call them friends
But when you don’t know what you’re running from
The party never ends (The party never ends)

Stand & Deliver
Brainard, Lupo, Brady, Prosper

Lyrics

She feels just like a piece of freight
Tossed upon the  sea of fate
Her faith is only this
A list of rules that she learned in school
Ahh her belief, is only sweet relief
 
Where have all the good girls gone, she says
Liberation, Liberation
Where have all the good girls gone, she says
Liberation, Liberation
 
They call it choice, but you got to choose it
The more they give you, the more you’re losing it
All the boys that you took to bed
Kill the silence in your head
Left you with the smell of bleach
Cold comfort in the breech
 
Where have all the good girls gone, she says
Liberation, Liberation
Where have all the good girls gone, she says
Liberation, Liberation

Stand & Deliver
Brainard, Lupo, Brady, Prosper

Lyrics

When all else fails, you close the curtain
Turn the TV way up loud
Laugh along with your nuclear family
Say you’re never too alone mama, to feel proud
When all else fails, you go out walking
But you’re not looking at the starry night
Close the door and mama you’re still shaken,
Cover up and hold your pillow tight.
 
When all else fails
It’s a way of living
If you’re so forgiving why you so alone?
Shame on him when it happened the first time
Shame on you still sitting at home
 
You’ve got new age crystals, assertiveness training
Hypnosis, Seven Habits, therapy, Tai Chi
Got a medicine chest on your nightstand, mama
Chicken Soup for the Soul, little chamomile tea
You say it’s slightly strange, but oh so familiar
Yeah, you’ve lived through this before
That was then, now you’re so much stronger
Say a ghost can’t see you through a locked door, no.
 
When all else fails
It’s a way of living
If you’re so forgiving why you so alone?
Shame on them when it happened the first time
Shame on you still sitting at home

Stand & Deliver
Brainard, Lupo, Brady, Prosper

Lyrics

Sherri says she thinks she's had enough
She don't believe there's a heaven up above
Sherri says if she can't get what she's after
Don't want to hear about the angels' laughter
No Sherri says all we need is a little love down here
 
Sherri says she don't believe in hell
If there's something left after this, Sherri says, oh well
Says can't you see it's bad enough around here
Trailer trash, NASCAR, bad tattoos and cheap beer
And Sherri says all we need is a little love
 
Sherri says when he holds her tight
He fall asleep, you know that Sherri lay awake all night
Sherri thought a man would ease her pain
Drank up her dreams and he pissed them down the drain
And now Sherri says all she need is a little love
 
Andrea del Sarto threw his talent away
For the comfort of a widow's kiss
And the day that you die is the day that you die
In the book of ages it is written like this
 
I've seen the best minds of my generation
Refuse to take their medication
Your electroshocks your chemical pills
Ain't gonna cure what ails us
I've seen the best minds of my generation
Washing windows at the service station
Gas up the beater, smash up the TV
Work it out now, your own salvation
 
A man's reach should exceed his grasp
Or what's a heaven for

Stand & Deliver
Brainard, Lupo, Brady, Prosper

Story

"We used to record all the band practices through Lupo’s old PA onto cassette tapes (remember those?) and I made Lupo give me the cassette. A few days later I drove over to Charleston, SC for the weekend. Brady’s dad had a house there and it was only a four or five hour drive from Atlanta, so sometimes I’d escape to the beach for the weekend if I had the money for gas and beer..."

Read the rest of the story behind "Flint MI" in the blog.

Lyrics

Over your house, Saturday night
You were fighting with your parents
About what time to come home
And I was layin’ low again.
You know I tried to show my intentions were good
And if I thought they were
Didn’t think that you would, anyway
Well it’s hard say
When you’re young and you’re so in love…
 
And your mama’s cookin’ dinner now
And your daddy’s in the living room
Reading ‘Guns & Ammo’
And he, doesn’t give a shit what you did at school
Just as long as you got A’s, on your tests
Cause if it’s C’s, you can stay inside
You don’t play, with the kids down the block
Cause the Satan-worship long-hair motherfuckers
Yeah yeah!
Why don’t you go upstairs and do your homework
You’re gonna end up a nothin’ like your uncle D
That long-haired freak better not be coming over
I don’t care if he is your brother!
 
I was a kid, Saturday night
Now I’m down at the alley, bowling strikes
On a Wednesday, and the beer flows like water
Let me tell ya
My old woman she could turn some heads
Now sometimes I wish that I was dead
And she was sittin’ home watching TV
And the rugrats are out prowling the streets
I said Ohh!
Sometimes work just gets so old
Wish I could crawl in a hole with a…
Forty of Bud you know that would never run dry!
And my friends tell the same old jokes
And I’ve been smelling the same old smokes
That blow in my face
I ain’t blowin’ nothin’ up noone’s ass,
Just getting by
Yeah yeah!
 
Ain’t in funny how time goes by, when you’re livin’ Nah, nah
 
Yeah maybe when the kids grow up and move away
Aw that’ll be the day, baby
Gonna do some travelin’
Buy a Winnebago or something
Lookin’ out the window
At Alaska, Puerto Rico, Hawaii
You know you got the TV blaring in the back of the RV, but it’s alright
Oh yeah
And you’ll be old and fat
Yeah I still remember that
Way back when, in that sweet, sweet summer
Nah, nah
 
It’s just a livin’ nah nah
It’s just a livin’ hey hey
Ain’t nothin’ you or me can, do to stop it
No, No, No, No, No
 
Just keep on givin’
Just keep on slippin’
On and on and on and on, And ON! 

Stand & Deliver
Brainard, Lupo, Brady, Prosper

Lyrics

I went to our winter garden, (Searching for lost time)
Seeds of memory growin’, (Wild and high)
I sat down in the place, (Where we fell from grace)
And the face of a young girl passing reminded me of you.
 
But the church bells weren’t ringing, birds weren’t singing
The dead leaves clinging in the trees, a mournful requiem
And the sun was frozen in the sky, the silent lovers passing by
And the eye of the old man saying nothing good can stay
 
So we drowned ourselves in alcohol, Our bodies followed protocol
And the ghosts that we left out in the hall, the dogs who would have their day
All the promises you’d broken, the others left unspoken
Tokens of our union, dues that we could not pay
 
All the things that you wanted, The weakness you flaunted
All the strategies of your elegant decay
Nothing
Nothing good, she says
Nothing
Nothing good can stay

Stand & Deliver
Brainard, Lupo, Brady, Prosper

Lyrics

I don’t want to relax
I ain’t gonna stop smoking dope
You’re dismissed
I let you hang from your own rope
I don’t wanna work
For you peoples anymore
I ain’t gonna love you
Love you anymore
 
I don’t wanna relax
I ain’t gonna calm down
I’m too high to fly
This close to the ground
I don’t wanna get by
I don’t wanna forgive
You may be born to die
I was born to live
 
When you wake up in the morning
You won’t see me no more
Tonight while you lie sleeping
I’ll be walking out your door
I don’t wanna be smart
I just wanna play dumb
I don’t wanna feel your pain
I just wanna stay numb
 

Stand & Deliver
Brainard, Lupo, Brady, Prosper

Lyrics

Well I’m sorry that I hurt you
I’m sorry that I ruined your life
I’m sorry that I hurt you, with the ugly side of me that I tried to sublime.
I’m sorry that I ruined your life
I’m sorry that it didn’t work out
I’m sorry baby, baby for the last 100 days we had nothing left to talk about.
Oh no!
 
Before you can say I will love you forever
This will have faded, that’s a fact
You’ll feel stupid wasting all of your time
On a simple disappearing act.
Aw Yeah!
 
Well I’m sorry that I hurt you
I’m sorry that it turned out so bad
I’m sorry that you said I, said I, said I was the best that you ever had
I’m sorry that I ruined your life
I’m sorry that I didn’t come home
I’m sorry that I was not there when I was not called on the telephone
Oh no!
 
Before you can say I will love you forever
This will have faded, that’s a fact
You’ll feel stupid wasting all of your precious time
On a simple disappearing act.
Oh Yeah!
Oh No!

Stand & Deliver
Brainard, Lupo, Brady, Prosper, Tasco

Lyrics

Crank up the Cat put on your hard hat
I cut through the earth with my six-blade knife
Cut through the fat
We tear down your street make room for the rich
Old couple lived in that house for 55 years
Ain’t it a bitch, bitch, bitch, oh yeah
Skyscraper, I’m a skyscraper
 
The corporation don’t care
Who they grind in the ground
From fifty floors up man
You can’t hear a sound in the city
I make my life in the dirt
But my love is so clean
I watch your short skirt sway from atop of my
Giant earth-moving machine
I snatch you off of the street
I take you up in the sky
You’ll know the depth of my love
When I step from the girder and fly
Skyscraper, I’m a skyscraper
 
You know my grandfather built this land
With the other immigrants working hand in hand
You want to sit there in your tower
I’ll bring you down in a cement flower
Cause I’m a skyscraper

Stand & Deliver
Brainard, Lupo, Brady, Prosper

Lyrics

O Lord will I walk free
Will my hands be always tied
Is it my lot to not be satisfied
O Lord will I walk free
Will I always need these chains
Can you make something of these sad remains
 
This mind you gave me
Don’t want to run in the paths of light
Dark thoughts enmesh me in the chains of night
Each time I said I walked in truth
And a hundred times I lied
And I give up twice for every time I tried
 
O Lord will I walk free
Will I always need these chains
Can you make something of these sad remains
O Lord will I walk free
Will my hands be always tied
Is it my lot to not be satisfied
 
I tried to want the good
I wanted so much more beside
And I give up twice for every time I tried
I’ve thrown good love away from I can’t be satisfied
But I lived two lives for every time I’ve died
 
O Lord will I walk free
Will I keep on falling down
Will there be peace beneath the cold, cold ground
 

Stand & Deliver
Brainard, Lupo, Brady, Prosper

Lyrics

In a northern town she grew up fast
But she came down to the city with wide eyes
She doesn’t miss her home
She never feels alone
Sophie says she never says goodbye
Inside the kids are drinking dancing
Sophie walk these streets she making poetry
She find a sentence on the sidewalk
A raindrop on a falling leaf
And she don’t believe in love
Said love would only bring her down
All your blood cries out to hold her
But her feet have never touched the ground
Sophie take a coffee at the corner
She take a lover now and then
She look for God down in the gutter
She said i found Him once then i lost Him once again
Sin the slanting sun a broken wing down in the park
Sophie look for heaven in a rainy street
After the sun goes down she walk around this town
They stare out of their windows Sophie says I am invisible
I am invisible to Him

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